This week I have been on extreme highs and lows. I found myself overly frustrated on Monday. You know, just one of those days where little things keep going wrong and you chalk it up to just being one of those days. I hate being a hormonal girl, and husband says it’s rare… so I guess it’s OK to admit that could have been part of the problem. In the midst of that day I found myself praying a Psalm that I found back in my 20′s. Psalm 13 is an honest prayer that questions God…
“How long O Lord, will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, O LORD my God. Give light to my eyes,or I will sleep in death; my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,” and my foes will rejoice when I fall. But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me.”
There were 3 things on Monday that I kinda threw in God’s face and said, I’m am so sick of praying about these!!! UAH! (… Said like that pop song “I Want You Back”. I love that exclamation throughout the song. It is believable.) So in response I wrote those 3 things that have been annoying me on a post-it note and stuck to my computer with Psalm 13. My hope is that I will live in that last part of the verse: ”But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me.” That I would stay there believing that God is going to continue to love me unfailingly and be good to me. That IS who he is been in the past.
On Tuesday (the next day mind you), one of those prayers was completely answered and finished. On Wednesday a completely separate prayer for a friend who so wanted a baby was answered. That prayer was years in the making. Oh, OK, so God is who he says he is. How can I forget?
Ever since my honest, annoyed, and “UAH!” prayer on Monday, God has seemed to speak to me repeatedly with reminders of his character. Here are a couple strong verses that just happened to show up. It is funny, they all happen to come via social media: 2 on Facebook, 1 on Pinterest. Quick lesson: God is always speaking. He will use any method to get to you.
“Do not give up on the goals and dreams God placed in your heart. “Be ye strong therefore, and let not your hands be weak: for your work shall be rewarded.” 2 Chronicles 15:7
“Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.” Hebrews 10:23
“Blessed is she who has believed that what the Lord has said to her will be accomplished!” Luke 1:45
Good stuff, right? Still actively waiting on the other 2 prayers to be answered, but really, I believe it will happen. And God doesn’t care if I am annoyed in the meantime. In fact, I think he likes it when I express myself authentically to Him. Just look how he has responded to me.
I hope this encourages someone out there too.